Returning to Work

I'm heading back to work on Monday and I thought I should try and get a post done, before I really have no spare time. After having 6 months off on maternity leave I have mixed emotions about my return. I am looking forward to not having to budget so strictly. I just know that I need to be super organised.

I went to the gym this week !! I've been going to a mothers group run by the community health service. And this week was a visit to the gym. Everyone took their babies and the community nurse also came to help. So it turns out that I had a great time. I was surprised at how nervous I was walking into the gym. But once I got through the front doors, I was fine. Turns out that I actually enjoyed it and I'm going back. I'm going to join for 1 month, to make sure that I really do enjoy it, and that I have the will power to go at least twice a week. If I go 2 times a week, then it's worth having a membership. So after that I will take out a membership.

I found some old photos last week, that date back to Dec '07. I figure I was about 100kg in the photo's and I think I looked pretty good. But I remember feeling big even at that weight. Of course I was still overweight, but I looked pretty healthy. It got me thinking about why I felt that way, and what has happened since then that has contributed to my weight gain. There's a few things that come to mind. So when I get a bit more time, I'll post the photo's and spill my guts on the last few years. A bit of self therapy never hurt anyone. and maybe it's just what I need.

I'm a little nervous about returning to work. I sort of feel like I'm starting a new job, not returning to my old one. The Manager that filled in for me has done a fantastic job. He's implemented some changes that have really improved the day to day running of the store. He's a single guy and he spent ALOT of time at the store. He transferred from another town, just for the 6 months, so he seemed to spend his spare time at the store. I guess I'm feeling pressure ( mainly from myself) to maintain the level of commitment that he has shown. Now I know in reality that's just not possible. I have a family and other commitments besides work. I just feel like I need to prove myself now that I've had another baby. Again, this is all internal, and hopefully once I actually get back into it, and establish my own routine, I'll feel heaps better.

I'm also nervous about my eating. While I'm at home I don't face temptations on a daily basis, because I simply don't keep them in the house. But at work, we have the bakery just across the road. The staff often do a McDonalds run for MORNING TEA !! I know I need to be prepared. So I'm going shopping tomorrow for work snacks. If I load my locker with low point snacks I should be fine. One of the girls at work has just started Weight Watchers too, so hopefully we can keep each other focused. I've made alot of changes in the lst 10 weeks, and I'm not about to undo them. I also think that if I go to the Gym it will reinforce to myself that I need to make healthy choices.

That's about it from me. I'll try to be more organised and make my next post a bit sooner.

Take Care
Trace