Don't You Quit

I found this post on the WW threads a few days ago and I really wanted to share it.

DON'T YOU QUIT
When you've eaten to much and you can't write it down,
And you feel like the biggest failure in town,
When you want to give up just because you gave in,
and forget all about being healthy & thin.
So what! You went over your points a bit,
It's your next move that counts...So DON'T YOU QUIT!
It's a moment of truth, its an attitude change.
It's learning the skills to get back in your range.
It's telling yourself "You've done great up til now.
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow.
"It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal,
You're still gonna make it, just stay in control.
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace,
if you summon the will to get back in the race.
But, often the strugglers, when losing their grip,
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip,
And learn too late when the damage is done,
that the race wasn't over...they still could have won!
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow,
but facing each challenge will help you to grow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.
When you're pushing to the brink,
just refuse to submit,
If you bite it, you write it...
ButDON'T YOU QUIT!!!
'Author Unknown'

I've read through this poem several times and I find it really inspiring. I've had a couple of days this week where the scales have been creeping upwards instead of down.I haven't been over my points at all and it's extremely frustrating. I know that this could be to due to any number of reasons. But there's been several moments where I've thought, " Well why am I bothering ? ". Thankfully these are only fleeting moments and I soon slap myself around the face and come back to reality.

I'm "bothering" because I'm sick to death of being morbidly obese, and I'm the only person that can do anything about it. I'm "bothering" because I want a life, I don't want to,not do things because I'm overweight. I want to be able to do whatever I damn well please. I'm "bothering" because I deserve this, and why should I settle for anything less. But most of all I'm "bothering" beacuse I'm just plain fed up with making excuses.

I've been reading some really inspiring blogs this morning and they really help me get into the right frame of mind. If I have a gain this week, it's not because I haven't tried. It's simply because "shit happens". I'm not going to raid the fridge and undo all the good that I've done. I'm going to keep going, and I will see the results eventually. This isn't an overnight trip that I'm on. It's a life time journey, and if I've got anything to do with it, it's going to be a long life.

Till next time
Trace

Weigh In

Weighed in yesterday and I managed to wipe another 1.1kg off my stats. I'm more than happy with this. Darren and I went out on Saturday night and I had quite a few to drink. So I was going to be happy with any downward turn in the scales. It made me realise that I don't have to stop enjoying myself in order to lose weight. On previous attempts at weight loss, I have tried to give up everything, and it just doesn't work. I just need to incorporate my new way of thinking into some of the things I enjoy. So I no longer drink rum and coke on tap (at 31/2 points per glass), it's now rum and coke zero. (at 1 point per glass). It's really just little changes, nothing drastic.

I'm into week 6 now and I really don't feel like I'm struggling food wise. I think I've finally realised that it doesn't matter how much weight I lose, I will always be living this lifestyle. I am struggling exercise wise. I love to swim and that's the exercise I've been doing up until last week. Since then it really hasn't been hot enough for a swim. I know I really need to go for a walk or something, but I just don't seem to be able to muster up the motivation. I think alot of the reason is that I've been losing weight anyway. Somewhere in the back of my mind I'm thinking "I don't need to exercise, I'm losing weight without it". I know this way of thinking is just stupid, it's just going to turn around and bite me on the bum. If I don't exercise the weight will come off slower. And I'm changing my lifestyle, and one of the changes I want to make is to do more exercise.It's about being healthier, not just losing weight. A friend of mine asked me if I'd consider going to the gym. I think I would, just not on my own. We are currently looking at some classes we can do together.

I have a goal in my mind and damn it, this time I'm going to succeed. I know there are times when I'm going to find it difficult, but I WILL SUCCEED. As Nat said on the WW thread, "she is going to be the 'after' women. " That's exactly what my goal is. I am going to fit all my body into one leg of my old trousers. I visualise this everyday. I really believe that I am going to do it this time. There is no other option. I will get this exercise on track. I guess I can't change everything about my life overnight, one step at a time. It's taken me a lifetime to form these habits, so it will take some time to create new ones.

Well that's my blurb for the day. Quite a whole lot of rambling really, but I enjoyed it all the same.

Till next time
Trace

This is me.

I've been reading quite a few bloggs lately, and i've realised that I really feel an extra connection to these people when I'm communicating with them on the WW threads. So I felt that I should let people know who I am. I'm not quite ready to post full length photo's of myself. But I'm sure I will one day.

I'm not sure how often I'll post. I'm hoping for at least once a week. And I'm not sure how interesting my posts will be, but here we go.

I'm into my fifth week of Weight Watchers and really starting to find my groove. Something about this time around feels different. ( This is my 3rd attempt) The only thing different that I can think of , is on my last attempts I wasn't aware of the WW threads and I was working. This time around I am on maternity leave. I still have 5 weeks to go before I go back to work, so I'll definetly be used to my new lifestyle by then.

That's the other thing that's different this time around. Right from the start I have looked at this as a lifestyle change. I AM NOT on a diet. I know that this is forever. That's where I went wrong on my last attempts, I figured that once I lost all the weight I could just go back to my "normal" eating. Well there was nothing "normal" about my way of eating and so, all the weight came back again, plus a bit more. Although I never actually lost all the weight before I went back to my old ways.

I've decided that I deserve this and so do my kids. I want to be able to run around with them, go on rides with them do all the things that thin people take for granted. I just want to be a healthy active mum. Not a couch potato. Since starting WW, I have taken my daughter for a swim in our pool about 4 times week. Before WW she was lucky if it was once. Her little face lights up with delight everytime I ask her if she wants to go for a swim. That in itself is a wonderful reward.

So this time I'm on the right track. I've got my friends on the WW thread to be accountable to, I have the VIP list and now I have this blogg. I want to succeed this time, and I really think it's going to happen.

In the past 4 weeks I've lost 6.7kgs. I think this is already a remarkable improvement. Of course no-one else has noticed yet(except hubby), but I'm not expecting anything for a while. I have a lot to lose so it may be a while before anyone notices. But that's not what I'm doing this for. I'm doing this for me.

Well, that's my introduction. Of course there's lots more to tell, but all in good time. I think I'm gonna be here for a while.

Till next time

Trace